[ yep. and it's not that ann wasn't worried--far from that, actually--she just wasn't expecting to die five times.
which is entirely her fault, and her mistake. ann hates feeling sad and sorry for herself, but...maybe opening up to people is what she needs to move forward from this. she's never going to forget it--how can she?--but she can at least take steps in the right direction. talking to allura was a good decision.
it shows in how there's a small smile on her lips. it's the first time she's smiled in days. ]
You're so strong, Allura. Hearing you say that...it kind of reminds me of my best friend. Shiho went through a lot...but when I saw her last, she was making a recovery. She's still fighting...and so are you.
[ for ann to see shiho in someone is very high praise. ] I guess...sometimes we just need some messed up coincidences to happen in order to bring us closer to people, right? That's how I met the Phantom Thieves, after all, and now...they're family to me.
[ a short pause. her eyes turn into something a little warmer. she still feels gloomy, distant; but her admission is honest and filled with sincerity: ] You guys are starting to become that, too.
[That's fine. One does not simply expect to die. Especially multiple times.
Allura is relieved to see that faint smile crossing the other's lips. From the glimpses she's seen the past couple days, she hasn't seen much of any from her. Or at all, if she recalls correctly. But then, she hasn't really smiled for a little while either. Not an actual one. And, she wants to argue that she isn't strong. Say that she's broken inside and simply trying to mend on her own.
Yet that never works, does it? She shakes her head.] And you are as well. Sometimes we just need a little push to keep moving forward.
[She doesn't quite get the praise, but she understands it's important. One day.
Allura places a hand on Ann's shoulder and smiles faintly. She's not at her best either, but there is a small amount of warmth in her eyes.] I'm honored you think that. [She means it.] I feel the same way.
I don't know when things will get better...but you're right. It might take a few more pushes, but I'll get there. We all will.
[ eventually. she doesn't sound completely convinced, but she's trying her best. she's going to miss allura, keith, and the other paladins when (or if) she does return home. maybe they'll be the ones to leave, first. but...if there's anything this talk with allura has made her realize, it's that maybe...she's found another home someplace else in the universe, on a giant mech made up of sentient mechanical lions. it's a crazy thought. and...even if she doesn't remember her time here, she wants to keep this feeling with her--the feeling that there will always be a place for her in the stars.
a hand goes on top of allura's. her smile turns a little warmer. the scars will always be there, but she will heal. she will move forward from this. and she knows her heart will be lit aflame once more, in time. ]
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which is entirely her fault, and her mistake. ann hates feeling sad and sorry for herself, but...maybe opening up to people is what she needs to move forward from this. she's never going to forget it--how can she?--but she can at least take steps in the right direction. talking to allura was a good decision.
it shows in how there's a small smile on her lips. it's the first time she's smiled in days. ]
You're so strong, Allura. Hearing you say that...it kind of reminds me of my best friend. Shiho went through a lot...but when I saw her last, she was making a recovery. She's still fighting...and so are you.
[ for ann to see shiho in someone is very high praise. ] I guess...sometimes we just need some messed up coincidences to happen in order to bring us closer to people, right? That's how I met the Phantom Thieves, after all, and now...they're family to me.
[ a short pause. her eyes turn into something a little warmer. she still feels gloomy, distant; but her admission is honest and filled with sincerity: ] You guys are starting to become that, too.
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Allura is relieved to see that faint smile crossing the other's lips. From the glimpses she's seen the past couple days, she hasn't seen much of any from her. Or at all, if she recalls correctly. But then, she hasn't really smiled for a little while either. Not an actual one. And, she wants to argue that she isn't strong. Say that she's broken inside and simply trying to mend on her own.
Yet that never works, does it? She shakes her head.] And you are as well. Sometimes we just need a little push to keep moving forward.
[She doesn't quite get the praise, but she understands it's important. One day.
Allura places a hand on Ann's shoulder and smiles faintly. She's not at her best either, but there is a small amount of warmth in her eyes.] I'm honored you think that. [She means it.] I feel the same way.
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[ eventually. she doesn't sound completely convinced, but she's trying her best. she's going to miss allura, keith, and the other paladins when (or if) she does return home. maybe they'll be the ones to leave, first. but...if there's anything this talk with allura has made her realize, it's that maybe...she's found another home someplace else in the universe, on a giant mech made up of sentient mechanical lions. it's a crazy thought. and...even if she doesn't remember her time here, she wants to keep this feeling with her--the feeling that there will always be a place for her in the stars.
a hand goes on top of allura's. her smile turns a little warmer. the scars will always be there, but she will heal. she will move forward from this. and she knows her heart will be lit aflame once more, in time. ]
Thank you.